I sit here nursing a bit of a head cold. My back is a little tight, but other than that I feel pretty good. I just finished watching the season finale of one of my favorite shows, Boardwalk Empire. I can't help to compare a season finale to what this past weekend was all about. Were some questions answered? Yes. Are there a whole new mess of questions yet to be answered? Yes. Were you excited to see the outcome, while also sad that it was over? Yes. Do you want the next season to start right away? Of course, but there is a lot of work to be done between now and then. Time to work. Time to think. Time to struggle. Time to make gains. Time to look back on what you were. Time to look forward to what you want to become. And plenty of time to live in the now.
Obviously I can look back on the last 14 months and see the progress that I have made. From being a triathlete, to competing in the regionals, and now a podium finish at a Crossfit competition. Does it feel good....kinda. Does it feel good to beat others at a sport, and compete a high level? Yes, but not for the obvious reasons. What I really enjoy about competition is it allows me to see what I have to work on in training, and then get back to work. I am a sculptor, working in low light constantly breaking down and refining the product in my hands. Only once in a while do I bring the product out into the sunlight to see how far I have come. Once I see that there are some hard edges and spaces that need to be filled in, I am anxious to quickly get back to the workshop to continue my quest for a perfect product. This is where I am now.
The difficult part is picking out the pieces that need the most work and improving them, while not ruining any pieces that are fine as they are.
Lower back endurance- Needs to improve to ensure objects being lifted from the ground don't slow my performance. I want a lower back of iron.
Grip endurance-Have to be able to hold on to bars and kettlebells for longer.
Sleep-This is getting better, but pre-competition anxiety has to give way fully at some point if I want to compete at my highest possible level.
Recently, an athlete I admire had a poor performance in a national event. Someone tried picking him up by saying, "Definition of success: going from one failure to another without loss of enthusiasm." This weekend was a failure, but I keep a positive outlook and I am excited for the journey ahead. You can't change the past, the future isn't guaranteed, might as well live in the now. Forward........